I’ve been deep into revisions (aka shedding many tears) the last month.
I not only didn’t participate in National Novel Writing Month like I wanted to, but I barely even wrote anything outside this blog – another reason of many why I’m glad I started it!
My revisions on my manuscript have involved some rewrites, but I haven’t actually been writing.
While I revise, I tend to just read through my manuscript, cutting out unnecessary scenes that don’t move the story forward. Revising scenes I thought were funny at some point but then realize they’re not. Rewriting parts that make no sense.
Revising involves some writing on my part, but it’s usually minimal.
When I revise, I read the same words over and over again and try to look at them as though they’re new. But they’re not. Not really.
I don’t have a lot of time during the day to revise and write new words. I have to spend the time I do have on making the revisions – otherwise, I’ll never finish a single story.
And that’s the goal – to have a complete draft that I can then get edited before I revise some more and try publishing.
But I miss just writing. I miss creating something new, thinking up new and quirky scenarios to put my characters in. New ways to present information. I miss the feeling of fresh words flowing.
Filling up blank pages with words is so exciting for me, and it gives me a sense of purpose. So when I’m not writing, I get into this slump. It’s so hard not to just start something new and leave the revisions for later.
But as I said, if I do that, I’ll never have a completed manuscript. I’ll never move forward toward my goal, and having a polished manuscript is my main goal for the beginning of 2019.
Although it’s hard now, I know it’ll be worth it when I finish. It’ll be worth it when I have a manuscript that I’m proud of. But I won’t be proud of it without revisions.
It’s all part of the process, and I have to tell myself a lot lately, to trust in this wonderfully, awfully tedious yet exciting process. To be patient, no matter how badly I want to get this story out into the world. Patience and hard work, as I’ve said before, will pay off.
Sure, there are downfalls to this stage of the process, but there are many good things about it as well. One being that as I near the end (okay I’m still about two months away from a polished product), I can at least see the finish line at this point. Even if it still looks a little blurry, I know it’s there.
And truth be told, I’m actually getting a little excited about it. About that as well as the progress I’m making with the story and fleshing it out more effectively. I’m cleaning it up, allowing it to really come to life.
I don’t have a profound goal for this post. No, this post is to simply to encourage you to keep moving forward, even when you feel like you’re in a rut. Like you’re getting nowhere.
That’s how I feel when I read through my manuscript over and over – like I’m really just getting nowhere.
But I am.
Even when I’m not actually writing, when I’m reading and working on shaping the story, I’m getting closer and closer to the finish line.
We all are, no matter what that finish line may be for all of us.
We’re on our way to being where we’re supposed to be. If only we don’t let the rut win.